missing my best friend....

Every memory remains
as the days pass quickly by
as i look upon the past
my heart just wants to cry

we were always together
through the good times and the bad
i try to keep a smile
but i cant fight the feeling sad

your laugh was addicting
and so was your smile
now everything's changing
and I'm stuck in denial

the person that has changed
at first i thought was you
but i realize now its me
but its not i changed, but grew

everyone will change
and everyone will grow
but i will always forever love you
and that i hope you know

i miss so many things
about the way it used to be
we both have made mistakes
not "just" you or not "just" me

i miss all of the good times
like when we'd talk all night long
or when we'd belt out the lyrics
to an old barney song

when we'd fall over laughing
and we wouldn't know why
all the hugs you gave me
when all I'd do is cry

i miss when we'd talk
for hours on end
but i think most of all
i just miss my best friend . . . .

Life @ RFS (1)

September 15th .. this was the day i will never forget .. the day i entered into my profession officially .. before this i did my work in film making by doing a video song and also started a short film .. i had lot of thoughts before going into this field , had many suggestions both positive and negative .. my parents were concerned but only for some time and now they are the best supporters .. thankfully all my friends never opposed me .. my only focus was on direction and creating some impact for myself ...

Finally i entered Ramanaidu Film Studios .. my film school is located in an awesome place .. you have golconda at one side , hitech city on the other side , also lanco hills .. what can u expect more .. perfect location for all the creative minds .. first day of my new life was superb .. you have a mixed aged group of students were each of them have their own creative ideas .. it was a different feel for me facing it but got adjusted to it soon as our classes continued ..

what is hurting me....???

what is happening with me...even i donno...everything is perfect but still there is some concern within...can't express it out freely and this is just irritating me...should find a solution for it...even u guys can suggest me...                                                                                                                                                                           this blog is my personal diary and i express what i feel...

feeling low....

it is very hard to keep your heart in control as you carry great emotions and the most difficult part of all is forgetting ur first luv...it has been 2 years and am still feeling low...i never had such feelings then , but something is really bothering me now and i donno what it is...??
i think it is easy to hurt people than loving them...the mistakes done should never be omitted...but realisation can be a solution...
i feel like climbing a mountain and shout as hard as i could...
i wanna get back and never make such mistakes again....GOD plzzz save me from thiss.....plzzzzz.....

finally a "smile"....

hiiii guys....it has been a long time sharing my thoughts with u....one good news is i cleared all my subjects which were as many as 22....it was one single attempt and i feel proud of it....the task was not that easy as these exams were in the span of 1 month....the entire credit goes to my friend SUMANTH who is also known to be as GOD....that is what we call him....not only me everyone should thank him as no one would have cleared any exams during our btech life....now i can proudly say that i am a graduate....

My dreams of doing MS is now changed as i think i chose the path i love....that is direction....

Also i joined in Ramanaidu Film School for PG in Direction & Screenplay....this would definately improve my skill and potential to reach my goal....

RISK productions is our banner and we make movies....

Recently i made a video song which was my debut in direction and gave me immense pleasure and thank you guys for rewarding me such happiness....the song was "kannulu neeve...." which was taken from the movie "Cheli"....the song was shot in 2 days and we guys enjoyed our work....thank you RISK team for encouraging me....

this is the link below of my video song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0nXwTWaV4jw

I hope this journey would give me everything that makes me feel happyy.....cheers!!!!

total confusion.....

wat to do nxt????????
this is the query which is coming in my mind from many days...
Btech with very average percentage n baklogs...
mistakes which are done will be reflecting here...
really dont have a single idea what to do and what not...learning from my past is the only thing i did till now...
i am in total confused stage...

luv..anger..betrayal..regrets...

i think these are the words which dominated my entire btech life....as i told u guys that it was only my 1st year of engineering , the best time faced....then after it was only the worst part....i never had any intentions to make such words become real but it just happened with me....loving someone is just like looking after a child and taking care of him....we have to be patient enough at the same time shouldn't loose our temper or else it leads to the situation where the child starts hating us and this ends up the good relation....i dont know whether this example is clear but it is similar to that of my situation....
people carry lot of emotions throughout their life....even i carry them but to a very high extent....i think such emotions make me more restless....the one which dominated the most was my anger , because of this i lost many good things....i even lost my love which was a costly miss....i then came to know how they expected from me and how well i reacted....i still regret for betraying them and also myself....